Cherish

 It looks like I might have a lot to say today, so thanks for listening readers!

Today I've learned of some very sad news effecting some people in my hometown. I do not know them, so i will not mention their names but I've been informed of their story and it is a sad one. Their little boy has passed away from SIDS. Now, as someone with some serious anxieties and a real desire to leave things up to our lord, this hits close to home. Every new parent has their anxieties and worries about their children constantly, but I don't think I was prepared for just how MUCH I was going to worry about her. From the day I got pregnant, I even started walking a little slower (afraid she was going to fall out maybe? - i dont know!) But now, with all of this new research and focus on SIDS, my sense of control has gone out the window. Now, as a mother, there are only so many things you can do to protect your child. The rest is up to God. Being a christian person, this concept should come much more easy to me, but it doesn't. My husband has this quality where he can let things take their course and trust in our higher power, but for me - I'm a constant worrier. There was one night, I kid you not, I was up at 4:30 am googling how to prevent these things from happening to my child. Sure there are breathing monitors, child CPR, and a network of educators and doctors that will tell you what will reduce these chances. But nothing can prepare you for this, nor can these things prevent it entirely! I guess what I'm trying to say is, no matter what we do here on this earth, we are not perfect. And the decision of who gets to be angels at this time and who doesn't is not up to us! Everyday is a struggle with this for me, and I'm sure I'm not alone in this!! My heart goes out to this family in their time of need...and anyone else who has ever been through and overcome something like this. We mommas, (& daddys!!) need to help each other out, be there for your neighbor, or even someone you don't know! Reach out and send support to groups that are there for people for things like this, or anyhing that you are passionate about! Hug and kiss your babies everyday...

God Bless <3 Taylor